@kae_yli

pov: you’re the beetle i’m trying to seduce

2025-07-18

one of the biggest fears i had to face in choosing to become a parent was that the role of motherhood would sterilize my dreams, beliefs, and ambitions. with much of this fear being informed by my observations of motherhood, I had a lot to unpack in what this said about my upbringing as well as the culture at large. but beyond my fear there was a warm, tender glow radiating a belief that motherhood wouldn’t reduce me to serve a vision of family and community that didn’t align with my ideals. instead, this belief encouraged me to imagine that motherhood could be expansive. beyond who I am and who I hope to be in the world; motherhood has continually nudged me to believe beyond the limitations of what I’ve experienced. it takes courage to trust that on the other side of everything you’ve ever known there are realities buzzing with the stuff that sees and loves you beyond what you can’t (yet) see. children are born oozing with this courage in my motherhood i try my best to honor this in my child, and it is here I understand that the last thing I should ever do as a parent is sterilize my own dreams, beliefs, and ambitions it’s hard, but it’s worth it. and it’s only brought more meaning into everything i long to meet, become, and share. hell yea ??‍↕️❤️‍?

2025-05-12

‼️I am not an expert just an admirer ? shoutout to my buddies @corwinprescott @vauntastic for helping me solve the mystery shoutout to rocks, stones, pebbles, boulders, etc

2025-04-17

❤️?when i think of what could bring the most holiday cheer, I think of causes that are important to me and toward a better world ? this holiday season i am thinking of @teamsters @sbworkersunited @elserenogreengrocer and the innate power we all gain access to when we realize how much better we are together ???‍↕️

2024-12-20

brief ((curated)) update for the grid ?

2024-10-28

I grew up on fantasy. Often times, the fantasy of better. A better nation. A better world. A better life. Fantasy was fed to me on a daily basis through television, movies, music, religion — the vision of a life I was told I needed to realize to become whole. In my last reel’s caption, I spoke to my belief in the power of fantasy. Today, I’m reflecting on the ways in which a fantasy can sometimes function to disempower, too. Something I’ve grown to understand in recent years is how much of my earliest fantasy-making was built on me becoming the fantasy. Being born with two sets of lips, I was to learn what it meant to be a woman: warm, gentle, feminine, passive, and ideally beautiful. I experienced a lot of tension in this prescription of self. And I’ve spent years grappling with what of this fantasy I’ve learned to become is true to me, and how much of it might just be truer to my desire to be loved, valued, and cared for. While I no longer believe my ability to receive love and care is dependent on my ability to perform the wholeness I was prescribed upon birth, my success in maintaining material security is still very much so predicated on it. In many ways, I am lucky. Much of the time, this performance is not so far from myself. Much of the time, I enjoy the opportunity to step into some expression of me I might not otherwise have the incentive to lean into. The contradictions, the spectacle — sometimes they’re more real than the things I’ve been told I must realize. Fantasy is powerful. And at many moments in my life, it was the only power I had. Lately I think a lot about what it might look like to redefine fantasies — not just the stories they tell, but the functions they serve. A fantasy is often a prescription — sometimes a set of rules, sometimes an antidote to soothe a wound that needs tending. A fantasy is also a map. What destinations have I marked? What might I reconsider about the stories I’ve been told of the dangers in uncharted terrains? And who do I become when I allow myself as much freedom to be explored as the worlds I hope to find in my travels? *in this video I am playing a snippet of “Pretty Things” by Big Thief

2024-08-06

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2024-05-28

our fantasies can become bridges to the things we long for — not just fleeting pleasures, or joy to be experienced in isolation. our deepest aches are rooted in the desires that drive us — whether we’re running toward or away from them. more than i hope to be desired by you, i hope that you are running — or walking — toward the desires that drive you. and if along the way we meet one another, may our path(s) be sweeter for it ? @atrevidafilm edited by me ?

2024-01-01

I’ll be participating in the general strike tomorrow. #strikeforgaza #istandwithpalestine #ceasefirenow

2023-12-11